Section 1
On the eleventh of the sixth month of Year 80 the Bell rang at 0630, one note, low, out of the deckheads, and nine thousand people felt their chests loosen, and then nothing happened.
That was the thing nobody had prepared for, and Camila had known it was coming and had put a line in her own working group's minutes about it eleven days in advance, and had still not prepared for it. The absence had a shape. For sixty-one years the note had been followed, at a count of four, by a long soft shove that came up through the deck into the soles of your feet, and now the note was followed by a count of four and then by a floor that stayed exactly where it was. Children who had put cups of water out the night before stood over them and watched the meniscus not move. In the Bowl, two hundred people who had come out of habit stood in the Highland wash with their hands on the rail, waiting, and went on waiting past any reasonable time, and one woman began to cry and could not have told anybody why.
Sol felt it at Frame 38 with a cryo fitting in her hand, and set the fitting down, and stood with her palm flat on the bench, and thought: that is four hundred and six kilograms we still have.
The Council of Ribs met at 0900.
They met in the chamber off the Bowl at Frame 31, which had twenty-two seats in a shallow curve and a public gallery behind a rail that had, in living memory, held perhaps eleven people on a busy day and which held, that morning, two hundred and forty, with a queue on the stairs and Merced Ekwueme-Strand at the back holding the door open with her boot so the ones on the stairs could hear.
The Programme went first, because the abeyance motion was theirs.
Director Halim Osegueda-Ferrer was sixty-four and had run the Programme since Y70 and had, in that decade, presided over the highest sustained Mood Index in the ship's history, and Sol, watching him take the floor, understood within four sentences that Bett had been right about the danger of thinking these people stupid, and that Camila had been right about the danger of thinking them wicked.
He did not dispute the determination. He said so at once, in his first minute, in the flattest possible language: the Registrar's finding was within her authority and rested on physical evidence the Programme had no competence to assess and no wish to contest. He said that the Programme had been wrong for ninety years, and that he personally had been wrong for ten, and that he would not be resigning today because resigning today was an act of self-care disguised as accountability and there was work to do.
Then he asked for ninety days.
"Not to reconsider," he said. "Not to soften anything. Ninety days in which the determination stands, the Survey continues, the Trust publishes whatever it likes, and this Council does not put a question to the Bowl. Ninety days to build the thing people will stand on before we ask them to stand on it." He put both hands on the rail of the speaking place. "I have the Cerro figures in front of me and I am not going to read them out, because reading them out is a rhetorical act and there are two hundred and forty people in that gallery. I will say only that in the eleventh year of the Cerro's voyage, a truth was told in a hurry by people who were entirely correct, and eleven percent of her complement was dead within a year, and she is still out there, and nobody has heard from her since Y41."
He sat down. Nobody made a sound.
Camila spoke second, because the Programme's assessment was hers to present, and she was thirty-eight years old and she had not slept properly in a month and she put a single sheet of flimsy on the rail in front of her and did not look at it once.
"Chair. The Continuity assessment is nineteen pages and it's on the public board since 0600 and I'd ask that it be taken as read." She waited for the nod. "I'm required to give the Council the current figures, and I'm going to do that, and then I'm going to say one thing that is not in the assessment, and my Director knows I'm going to say it, and he has not asked me not to, and I'd like that in the minutes."
"It's in the minutes," said the Chair.
"Mood Index this morning, four point four. Open P-7 referrals, sixty-eight. Sleep-aid dispensing up four hundred and ten percent on the month. Absence from shift up eleven percent, and I'd note for the Council that most of that absence is people going and looking at their own equipment, which does not show up anywhere as work." Camila's voice was absolutely steady. "Since the twelfth of the fifth month there have been seven deaths by self-administration aboard this ship. In the same period of last year there was one. I am going to read the names, because it is the last thing my office is going to be permitted to do quietly and I would rather do it loudly."
She read them. It took forty seconds. Rufino Adeyemi-Løkke was the first and a woman of eighty-one from the Long Rib was the fourth and a nineteen-year-old apprentice from Hydroponics was the seventh, and the gallery made no noise at all except, near the end, one sound from somewhere at the back that had a name in it.
"That's the bill so far," said Camila. "It is going to get worse before the winter. Every projection I have says worse, and every projection I have was built by people who were assuming they'd be managing a Milestone, and I don't trust any of them past ninety days, and neither should you."
Section 2
She let that sit.
"And now the thing that isn't in the assessment," she said. "I'm going to advise this Council against my Director's motion, and I want to be precise about why, because he is right about everything except the mechanism."
There was a small movement along the curve of seats.
"Ninety days doesn't buy what he thinks it buys. There is nothing to build in ninety days, because the thing people need to stand on is not a communication. I've been in Observances for nine years and I have written four hundred communications and not one of them has ever held anybody's weight for longer than a Milestone." She picked the flimsy up at last and turned it over and put it face down. "The only structure I've seen hold weight in the last month is work. On the twelfth of the fifth, a woman at Frame 31 who runs a laundry press filed a recertification on her own machine, unprompted, at ten past six in the morning, and wrote in the reason field because I was told to look at my own bench first. There were eleven filings that day. There were nine hundred and forty yesterday. Sixty-eight people are in category seven and about four thousand are in a shop somewhere arguing with a stores clerk about interlayer creep, and I would ask the Council to notice that those are not the same four thousand people, and that the second number is why the first one isn't larger."
"You're saying the Survey is holding it up," said a councillor.
"I'm saying the Survey is the only thing holding it up, and that it is being held up by nine hundred people a day who have not been told what to think and have therefore not had anything taken away from them," said Camila. "A person who has worked out a terrible thing at their own bench with their own hands is standing on something. A person who has been informed of it in a well-drafted paragraph by my office is standing on my office. There are nine thousand of them and there are forty of us and we will not bear it. We have never borne it. We have only ever been standing on the schedule, the same as everybody else, and the schedule has gone."
She sat down. Osegueda-Ferrer, four seats along, reached over and put his hand briefly on her forearm, which Sol, from the gallery rail, thought was either the kindest or the most professional thing she had ever seen a man do in public, and probably both, and probably that was the whole story of the Programme.
Then they called the Registrar, and then they called Chief Ekwueme-Strand, and then, at 1104, they called Sol.
Section 3
The attack, when it came, was not an attack. That was the last thing she learned about them, and she thought afterwards that she should have known it from the beginning, because she had been told, in one way or another, by everybody: there is no room full of men with a list.
Councillor Tobias Iwu-Grenfell, Ribs Four, second term, forty-five years old, a decent man with a decent record, asked his question in a tone of open sympathy.
"Ms. Ibarra-Nakashima, before anything else — on behalf of my constituency I'd like to say that whatever this Council decides today, what you did in the fourth and fifth months of this year was extraordinary, and it appears to have been right, and I don't want that lost in what I'm about to ask."
"Thank you, Councillor."
"My difficulty is this." He turned a page he did not need to turn. "Everything before us today comes back to one person's judgement on one night. One channel. One technician. One pattern noticed in a recording, by a woman who by her own account had been awake for fourteen hours, and who then — and I say this with respect — spent nine days assembling a case in support of it. That's not a criticism. That's how anybody would behave. But the Trust's determination, and the Structures finding, and the Nav note, and the Survey, and this Council's whole agenda, are all downstream of a single interpretive act by a single individual." He spread his hands. "How do we know we are not, all of us, nine thousand of us, downstream of one tired woman who heard a rhythm?"
The chamber went very quiet.
Sol had rehearsed eleven answers on the walk down and she used none of them. She reached into the stores bag at her feet and took out two objects and set them on the rail of the speaking place, side by side.
"Councillor, I'm going to ask the Chair's leave to pass two things round the table, and to hand up a third to the gallery, and I'd like to say nothing at all while it happens, because everything I say from here is exactly the problem you've correctly identified."
The Chair looked down the table, and got nothing back, and said, "Leave granted."
"On the left is witness coupon Y80-1," said Sol. "It came out of the rack in the forward vestibule where Forward Structures has racked coupons twice a year since Departure. It is in Trust custody, tag 80-0031, and it is the object on which the entire ablation basis of this ship has rested for thirty years. On the right is a piece of the front of this ship. It's sixty millimetres by sixty by six. It was cut off the first surface of the Bow Cap four metres inboard of Aperture Fourteen at 0524 on the nineteenth of the fifth month by Teodoro Amaral-Kwan, Structures Four, in my presence, and it has been out in it since the yard at Phobos closed it out eighty-one years ago." She put a loupe down between them. "One of these has been in a sandstorm for eighty-one years. The other has been shot with iron dust by a machine at Frame Six to a specification with a resolution limit. Twelve magnifications. Look at the small craters. Go down in size until they stop. On one of them they don't stop."
She stepped back from the rail.
"That's all. I'm not going to answer any more questions until it's gone round."
It took twenty-six minutes.
Councillor Iwu-Grenfell went first, because he had asked, and he did it properly, at the lamp, for a long time, and when he had done it he did not say anything, and passed both objects to his left and then sat looking at his own hands.
Sol stood at the speaking place with her arms at her sides and watched twenty-two elected representatives of nine thousand people hand two pieces of metal along a curved table, and she thought about a man of twenty-one in Y52 with a loupe his mother had given him because he thought it made him look serious, who had gone four years believing he was ill, and who had worked out — alone, with nobody to ask — that nobody argues with a thing you can hold, and had died at a rosette six metres from a hatch, trying to get one.
She had said so, upstairs, to the Chair, before the session, and the Chair had asked whether she wanted it read into the record, and she had said no. It would keep. It would keep for eleven years if necessary. It was not a card to be played; it was a debt to be paid slowly, in files, with the correct references.
At the eleventh seat, a very old woman took the loupe and looked, and put it down, and did not pass the coupons on.
"Chair," said Councillor Ines Sorrentino-Mbeki, Ribs Two, seventy-three years old, in her ninth term. "I'd like the record to show that I am holding these for a moment."
"Noted."
"Ms. Ibarra-Nakashima. In Y74 a woman came to me with a case." Her voice was very dry and did not shake at all. "Nadia Okonkwo-Reyes. Propellant archivist. We were at school together at Frame 27; she was better at everything than I was except talking. She sat in my berth for an hour and a half with a folder and she told me that this ship was not moving as we had been told, and she had it in order, and she had done the arithmetic, and she was frightened, and she asked me to believe her." She put her hand flat on the table beside the two coupons. "I filed a wellbeing referral. Category seven. I did it that evening, and I did it because I loved her, and I have never for one day since believed that I did anything other than my duty as I understood it, and I have thought about her at least once a week for six years since she died."
Section 4
The chamber did not move.
"I am not going to tell this Council how to vote on the Director's motion. I have a different motion and I will bring it after." Councillor Sorrentino-Mbeki pushed the coupons and the loupe on to her left. "But I want two things minuted. The first is that the care taxonomy of this ship contains no outcome code for a category seven referral in which the subject was correct, and that this is not an oversight, it is a design, and I would like one made, and I would like Nadia's file re-coded under it and her family told, in person, by me."
"So minuted," said the Chair, after a moment.
"The second," said the old woman, "is a question for the technician, and it isn't a hostile one, and she may take her time."
"Ask it," said Sol.
"You had nine days. You could have come to a member of this Council. You could have come to me — I'm on the public list, my berth is at Frame 30, anybody can knock." Councillor Sorrentino-Mbeki looked up at her. "You didn't. You went to a chief of Structures and a girl in Nav and a keyworker and a maintenance technician of twenty-four, and you filed a work order about a chamfer. Why did you not come to us?"
Sol thought about lying to her, and did not, because the woman had just done the hardest thing anyone had done in that room.
"Because I knew what happened to Nadia," she said, "and I knew who filed it, and I knew it wasn't cruelty, and I worked out that if I came to this Council as a person asking to be believed, then the most likely outcome in the world was that somebody decent would be worried about me." She kept her eyes on the old woman's. "So I went to the people who could put their hands on the metal. Not because they're better. Because the metal doesn't need anybody's belief. Councillor, I want to be honest with you in front of two hundred and forty people: I did not trust this Council, and I was right not to, and the reason I was right is not that you are bad. It's that this ship has spent ninety years building a very kind machine for converting a true statement into a symptom, and every one of us is a part of it, and you were the part that touched Nadia."
Councillor Ines Sorrentino-Mbeki nodded slowly, twice.
"Yes," she said. "That's what I thought it was."
Section 5
The Director's motion for abeyance was put at 1240 and was defeated fifteen to seven, and the seven were not cowards and said so in their explanations of vote, and one of them, a young member from Ribs Six, said the only thing anybody remembered afterwards, which was: I am voting for ninety days because I have a daughter of eleven and I do not know how to tell her, and I am aware that this is not a reason, and I would like it recorded as the reason anyway.
Then Councillor Sorrentino-Mbeki brought her motion, and it was two sentences long, and it took the chamber four hours to understand it and eleven minutes to pass it.
"That this Council refers to the Bowl the question of the Instrument Trust," she read. "And that, pending that referral, all instrument records retired under the Charter be restored to the public archive in full fidelity."
It was the Registrar who explained it, because she was the only person in the room who could, and she did it standing, from the witnesses' bench, with the Charter open in front of her at a page she had clearly known by heart for sixteen years.
"Article nine," said Thea Marchetti-Owusu. "The astrometric instruments and their records are placed under the Instrument Trust, in perpetuity, for the benefit of arrival." She looked up. "Perpetuity," she said, "was the word they fought over in Y13, and it is the word every Registrar since has hidden behind, including me, for sixteen years. It means nobody can take the instruments off the Trust. It does not mean what we have all pretended it means, which is that nobody can look at them. Nothing in article nine restricts publication. Nothing in it authorises retirement of a record. The retirements were done under a Standing Order of this office — not the Charter — and a Standing Order of this office can be rescinded by this office, and I rescinded it at 0600 this morning, and the councillor's motion asks you to make that permanent so that my successor cannot un-rescind it on a bad Tuesday."
"How much is there?" somebody asked.
"I don't know," said the Registrar. "That's the honest answer and it's a disgraceful one. There is a ledger of retirements. It has four thousand one hundred and six entries between Y13 and Y79, and each entry is a date, a record reference, and the word retired. I have read the ledger. I have never opened a single one of the records, because opening one would have required me to write down why."
The vote was twenty-two to nothing, and then the Chair, who had said almost nothing for five hours, asked whether anybody wished to add anything before the referral was drafted, and Councillor Iwu-Grenfell — who had asked the question about one tired woman, and who had by then been sitting with his hands folded for four hours — said: "Chair. I'd like the referral to the Bowl to include the two coupons. Physically. On a table, with a lamp and a glass, in the middle of the floor, for the entire three days, and anybody who wants to look may look, and nobody is to be told what they are looking at until they have looked."
Section 6
The referral to the Bowl was set for the first three days of the seventh month, which gave the ship nineteen days, and Sol spent eleven of them at the front of the ship taking blanks off slits.
It was, in the end, work. That was the part she had not been able to explain to anybody and had eventually stopped trying to: that after the vote in the chamber and the names read out and the two coupons going hand to hand along a curved table, what there actually was, every day, was a walkway forty metres long with eleven stations still to do, and a cold that got into your teeth, and eight captive fasteners at a time.
They did them in numerical order because Merced had insisted on it, and Merced now ran the gallery as a Structures work area with a permit board at 5-A and a sign-in sheet, and there was a kettle at the aft end near the nail, which Kemi had brought up and which Chief Ekwueme-Strand had looked at for a long moment and had then said nothing whatever about.
Kemi did the fasteners on nine of the eleven, because it was her plant and because she asked to. Ruy Ferrão came up on the fourth day and did station six without speaking to Sol at all, and then, at the end of it, standing in the lit gallery with the blank in a bag under his arm, said, to a point on the wall about a metre to the left of her:
"He'd have hated all this. Rufino. He hated a fuss."
"I never met him."
"No." Ruy looked at the empty mount and its three thumbscrews. "He taught me to pull a tether through my hands. Every metre, every time, on my knees, and he'd say — " the man stopped, and started again — "he'd say, nobody's going to check this but you."
He went aft. He came back the next day and did station seven.
The projectors came out one by one and went to Trust custody in numbered bags, and the blanks came off, and behind each of them was a slot two hundred and forty millimetres by eighteen with a chamfer as sharp as the day it was cut, and beyond that a wall of unmoving light with holes in it, and each time it happened somebody in the gallery stopped what they were doing and went and looked, and nobody ever said anything.
On the ninth day, at station three, Jaiye Vance-Oyelaran, who had come up between shifts every day for a week to read rating plates aloud for the record, put her eye to the open slot for a long time and then sat down on the grating with her back against the yellow rail.
"It's not going to work," she said.
Sol put down the driver.
"Say it properly."
"The stack." Jae had her forearms on her knees and was looking at the grating. "I've been running the numbers as they come in. Twelve honest channels, all of them looking at real sky for the first time in sixty-one years, and the eclipse epochs are beautiful, Sol, they're beautiful, the timing residuals are the cleanest thing I have ever seen come off an instrument." She rubbed her face. "And I still can't give you a position."
"Why not?"
"Because a position needs a baseline. Astrometry is parallax and parallax is motion — you measure a star from here, and then you measure it from somewhere else, and the somewhere else has to be far enough away to make an angle." She laughed, one breath. "At book speed we'd move a tenth of a light-year in a year. That's a magnificent baseline. You could do the whole galaxy off it. At a fortieth of book we move two and a half thousandths of a light-year in a year, and our angular precision is what it is, and I've run it four different ways, and the answer is that this ship has to travel for between eleven and fourteen years before its own instruments can independently establish where it is to better than the error on the Y11 dead-reckoning."
Sol sat down on the grating opposite her.
"Eleven years."
"Eleven to fourteen. I can give you the velocity to three percent inside eighteen months, because velocity's a rate and rates are kind. The absolute position — " Jae shook her head. "We know where we are because we know where we started and how fast we've been going and for how long, and every one of those is now a real measured number instead of a story, and that's enormous, and it is also exactly what the Bridge has been publishing since Y19, just with a different multiplier in it. I'm going to have to stand up in the Bowl and say that."
"Then say it."
"They'll hear she doesn't know either."
"Some of them will." Sol pulled her knees up. "Jae. What's the first honest number that comes out of twelve open slits?"
"Velocity. To three percent, in eighteen months."
"And what's the second?"
Jae looked up.
"Whether it's changing," she said slowly. "Whether we're — " she stopped. "Interstellar drag. The medium. We've been ploughing hydrogen for eighty years with three hundred tonnes of Cap and no thrust, and nobody has ever measured our deceleration because nobody was allowed to measure anything."
"How long?"
"Four years. Maybe three." Jae was already writing on her hand with a stylus, which Sol had noticed she did when the slate felt too formal. "Oh, that's — Sol, that's actionable, that's not philosophy, that's a number that tells you whether the four-hundred-year hull has to be a six-hundred-year hull or a nine-hundred-year hull, that's an input to the Survey — "
"Then that's your nine words," said Sol. "Not I don't know where we are. In three years I will know whether we are slowing down."
Jae sat with her back against the rail of a walkway at the front of a ship going nowhere and looked at the stylus marks on her own hand.
Section 7
"My grandfather got a berth with a window bay," she said.
"Yes."
"I keep waiting to be offered something." She said it lightly and it did not come out lightly. "Genuinely. Every time somebody senior speaks to me kindly I go cold. And nobody's offered me anything, and I think it's because there's nothing left to offer, and I don't know whether that means we won or whether it means the offering was never a person's decision in the first place."
"Both," said Sol. "That's usually how it comes."
Section 8
She went to the Grove on the last night before the referral, which she had not done since the committal.
It was two decks of soil and low light at Frame 15, and the trees in it were small and hard and eighty years old, and under each one was somebody. Bett Osei was in the eleventh row, under a persimmon that would not fruit for another four years, with a plate the size of a hand: OSEI, BETHANY IFEOMA. Y-6 – Y80. HULL STRUCTURES. SHE BUILT IT HEAVY WHERE SHE COULD.
Merced had written that. The guild had refused to let anybody else write it and the guild had been right.
Sol sat down on the edging with her back against the persimmon and did not say anything for a while, because Bett would have found being talked to intolerable.
Nadia Okonkwo-Reyes was eleven rows further on, under a fig; Sol had found her the week before. The plate said PROPELLANT ARCHIVES and gave two dates and nothing else. Councillor Sorrentino-Mbeki had put in a request, through the proper channel, in writing, for the addition of a single line, and the request was in a queue somewhere behind four hundred and eleven thousand others, and the councillor had said, in the corridor, with enormous satisfaction: good. Let it queue. Let it queue in public.
Ansel Ferreira-Sunquist was not in the Grove. Sol had looked. He was in the Grove in the record — remains committed — and he was not in the Grove in fact, because there had been no remains, because a man's regulator had iced at a rosette in Y69 and he had been brought in and there had been a service and the record had said what the record said. There was a tree in row four with his name on it, planted over nothing, which somebody had done in Y69 because the alternative was to write down what had actually happened.
She had asked the Registrar whether that could be corrected too, and Thea Marchetti-Owusu had said: yes. It'll take two years and it will involve seven offices and a Charter question about the definition of committal, and I have already started, and I would like you to know that starting it was the first thing I did after I signed the determination, before I went home to my wife, at two in the afternoon on the eleventh of the fifth month.
Sol sat under the persimmon until the Grove lights went to their night level.
Then she got up and went to Frame 26, because it was the tenth of the seventh month and she had promised.
Section 9
Tico had the model on the fold-table and he had rebuilt it twice since the seventeenth of the fifth, and it was, at eight years old — he had turned eight in the sixth month, and the party had been thinly attended and nobody had said why — a genuinely good piece of work.
The gallery inside the paper hull was the right length now. He had measured it off a tracing of sheet nine that Chief Adaeze Ekwueme-Strand had made herself, in pencil, on tissue, in response to a letter written in ink with a date on it, and had sent down with a note that said Dear Mr Ibarra-Nakashima, thank you for your enquiry. The gallery is 41.2m along the centreline of the walkway. I enclose a tracing. Please return it when you no longer need it, or keep it if you take up the trade. A. Ekwueme-Strand, Chief, Forward Structures.
He had kept it. It was pinned above his bunk where the string model used to hang.
"The lights are wrong," he said, before she was through the door. "I put them on the ceiling. Merced says they're on the wall, on bosses, because you can't get a ladder in there."
"Merced's right."
"So it's wrong."
"So make the next one right," said Sol.
He gave her a look of such profound eight-year-old exasperation that she had to turn away and put her bag down.
Camila came out of the other room with her sleeves rolled and flour to the elbow, which was a thing she did when she could not sleep, and there was bread rising under a cloth and it was 2140 at night.
"He's got a question," she said. "He's had it for four days and he's been saving it for you, and I've told him he can ask it, and I want you to know that I've spent four days deciding that."
Sol sat down at the fold-table.
"Ask."
Tico put both hands on the paper ship, on the spin ring, one on each side, the way you hold something to keep it from being taken.
"Do we get there?"
The kitchen was very warm and smelled of yeast, and somewhere on the terrace below a door opened and a burst of music got out and was shut in again.
Sol did not look at her sister. She had learned that much, at least: that looking at Camila now would make it a conversation between adults over a child's head, and that this was the single most damaging thing she could do in this room.
"No," she said. "Not us. Not you, and not your children, and not their children. Nobody who is alive now is going to arrive anywhere, and the place we were going to, we're not going to at all, ever. That's the true thing and I'm not going to say it a nicer way, because you'd know."
Tico's hands stayed on the ship.
"Then what's the point," he said. It did not come out as a wail. It came out flat and hard and slightly angry, which Sol thought, in some distant part of herself, was the best possible sign.
"That's the right question and I'm going to answer it in two parts and the first part is bad," she said. "The first part is: for about four hundred years, nobody knows. The hull was built to last four hundred years because it only had to last a hundred and seventeen with margin, and the air machinery drifts somewhere after six hundred, and that's not a thing anybody can fix by being brave or by being sad. It's a thing you fix by rebuilding a ship while you're living inside it, in the dark, with what you've got, and nobody's ever done it, and it might not work."
"So we die."
"Eventually everybody dies. That was always true and it hasn't changed today." Sol put one finger on the paper Cap, grey, rubbed with pencil lead, rough. "Here's the second part. Do you know what your Aunt Bett worked out, ten days before she died, sitting in a chair, at eighty-six?"
He shook his head.
"Mass is free."
"What?"
"Every single thing on this ship was made light, because when you're going somewhere fast, every extra kilo costs you a day of arrival. Every plate, every shelf, every bracket, every centimetre of shielding, thin and light and just barely enough — for a hundred and seventeen years." Sol leaned in. "We're not going fast. We're never going fast. So it doesn't matter what it weighs. Not one gram of it matters. And there are four hundred and eleven thousand things aboard this ship that were made thin for a reason that stopped existing before your grandmother was born, and every one of them can be made thick."
Tico looked at the ship under his hands.
"Out of what?"
"Out of the ship," said Sol. "Out of the parts we were only carrying because we were going to land them. There are landing legs in the aft holds, Tico. There are four hundred tonnes of them. They're for setting down on a world that we are never going to see and they are the best steel on this vessel, and one day somebody is going to cut them up and make hull out of them, and I hope to God I live to see the work order."
The boy was quiet for a long moment.
"Will I see it?"
"You'll write it," said Sol.
His face did the thing it had done at the door in the fifth month, when he had been told the Cap was cold: the sudden downward look, the intense private processing, a child being handed something bigger than the question and deciding whether to pick it up.
"I'd need to be licensed," he said.
"Thirteen years."
"Twelve." He was already turning the model over, looking at the underside, at the aft holds, which he had never bothered to draw. "It's twelve now. I'm eight."
Section 10
Camila made a sound at the counter and put her floury hands over her face for a second, and Sol did not look at her, and Tico did not notice, because he had got a straightedge out of the drawer and was measuring the aft third of his own ship.